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Wednesday, August 2nd, 2006
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for the record
i am in love with josh keller's modesty.
as far as im concerned, it proves that there is still hope in the world.
way to be man. way to be.
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dear livejournal
if things weren't going well, you'd be hearing from me alot more often.
sincerely,
nick
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ah the travesties of adolescence....
summer is going much better than last year though
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one year ago today.
the day and the night that kicked off the worst era of my life to date.
the night that set the whole damn summer into a spiraling descent.
i will always remember how it felt. i will never forget the summer of my sixteenth year and how much it sucked.
a summer of loneliness, abandonment, depression, hatred, self deprecation, and emptiness.
thank you to everybody who made last summer possible.
(an actual) thank you to the seldom few people who tried to help
and thank you to the two people who brought me out.
neither of them use livejournal anymore, and that makes me happy. they know how much they mean to me without reading this.
now its been going good since october.
here is to a better summer. here is to my happiness and my sanity. here is to you.
cheers.
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Wednesday, April 26th, 2006
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its when i look back at first, what i expected out of this past year,
and then, what all i have actually gotten out of it
that i do finally realize all that school has done for me as a junior
and i am very thankful for that
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Tuesday, March 28th, 2006
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and then i saw her face
now im a believer
without a trace
of doubt in my mind
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Tuesday, March 21st, 2006
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mother nature: what. the. FUCK?!!
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Wednesday, March 1st, 2006
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everyone needs a day to forget about the days behind them and those ahead of them.
for a brief moment, i had that today.
thank you to blink 182 and the 75 degree weather.
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Saturday, December 3rd, 2005
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bitch bitch bitch. complain. teen angst. grrr.
everybody now! on three...
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Thursday, October 20th, 2005
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if knowledge is evil, what greater good do we have?
the good we hold so dear has to hold the knowledge of everything or else it really isnt Good. good is the choice of knowing the options and denying the evil. if our Good holds no knowledge, how can it really be good?
Nay, i say. knowledge is the tool against evil. knowledge without compassion, now you might be on to something there. without a heart the body dies. without a brain, the body ceases to function. without the either, the soul cannot exist.
knowledge without compassion is evil.
for all it takes for evil to prevail is for the good to do nothing.
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Tuesday, October 4th, 2005
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its been one of those days.
one of those days that i havent seen in a long time.
a day that had a happy ending.
its been one of those days.
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Saturday, October 1st, 2005
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things might have the chance of taking a turn for the better. the way better.
but im afraid to get my hopes up too much.
all i know is that it was the first time i had felt sheer joy in a long time.
october got here pretty fast.
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Wednesday, September 28th, 2005
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Monday, September 26th, 2005
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when you look into my eyes, tell me: how much emptiness do you see?
well i guarantee you its just the tip of the iceberg.
having brown eyes sucks anyways. i wonder how blank they are.
whats a freakishly tall boy to do but complain about how freakishly tall he is?
this is your cue to stop caring about what i say.
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Sunday, September 25th, 2005
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what a fun filled weeken i had. whew-y let me tell you. it sure blows all these other amazing weekends people had out of the water.
wait. no it doesnt. i did homework all fucking weekend.
She says live up to your first impression,
Well my best side was your worst invention,
Can't you live without the attention?
Can't you live without the attention?
my best side was your worst invention
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Friday, September 23rd, 2005
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students twenty years from now might be reading their textbooks and find a section about the good old days of 2005. among war and other things, one section might particularly stick out. one such as:
How the Gulf Coast was Royally Fucked by Mother Nature: The Hurricane Season that bitch-slapped the US
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Monday, September 19th, 2005
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well fuck. THAT was a monday.
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Thursday, September 15th, 2005
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i find it funny that there are things that make my quite happy. but they are merely figments of my imagination.
oh the irony.
Shit!
Nothing makes sense, so I won't think about it. I'll go with the ignorance.
Eat, sleep, fuck and flee; in four words, that's me.
I am full of indifference.
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Sunday, September 11th, 2005
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ash gardner and drew dingeldein. i miss you. i need our art class back.
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Thursday, September 8th, 2005
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Love is too simple for me too understand.
In a world that teaches complication, love is too pure to be reached.
makes love easy to hate.
so ill stop trying to understand it. sounds like a plan to me. story of my life.
im such a fucking whiner.
as if i needed more reasons to hate myself.
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